The Southern Oracle

God, I love the stars...it's amazing just how truly infinite the heavens are...as hard as it is to imagine that they go on forever, it is even harder to think that they end somewhere.

A few random things to do if you have nothing to do...

In your life you meet a lot people. some you never think about again. some you wonder what happened to them. there are some that you wonder if they ever think about you. and then there are some you wish you never had to think about again; but you do.

I WANT OUT I WANT OUT I WANT OUT I WANT OUT I WANT OUT I WANT OUT I WANT OUT I WANT OUT I WANT OUT I WANT OUT I WANT OUT I WANT OUT I WANT OUT I WANT OUT I WANT OUT I WANT OUT I WANT OUT I WANT OUT I WANT OUT I WANT OUT I WANT OUT I WANT OUT I WANT OUT I WANT OUT I WANT OUT I WANT OUT I WANT OUT I WANT OUT I WANT OUT I WANT OUT !

Well, not that I've got that out of my system, one good thing that happened today was I snagged a Gmail account, which, I have to admit I had no idea what it was until I got one. Thanks to my good friend who doesn't believe in evolution, I now do. And I feel special:)

--Why is it that some people only want to talk to me when there is bad news to tell?

--So this girl I used to know, my old teammate Courtney Kupets, is going to the Olympic Trials. This should be interesting to watch, because I knew her and her sister way back when...Saturday, NBC, 8pm. Be there.

--At least people like my little story game. Go play, it's fun.

--The History of Magicalears has been revealed, and I wrote the intro. Yay for me, and all of you priviledged enough to read it:)

Gothic Floor Plan

Just something I did for art history class that I am slightly proud of and wanted to show off:)

Choices

The one thing you must not do during a game is acknowledge that it is one.

It's near to four AM and I am sleeping in a Wal-Mart parking lot. Wondering how I got here? So am I. It's not the first time this has happened, and I'm sure it won't be the last. I get the urge to write at the oddest times; but I'm buzzed on coke and what else can one do at this time but write? So here I am. Listening to the street sweepers rattle by, and wishing I had a toothbrush. It's funny when you realize just how many things you think you need are really just a luxury; they're nice to have but you can survive without them. Sometimes, just knowing that you can survive is enough. People can say what they will about me, but I have seen things and done things that they will never see or do; and for their sheer ignorance I pity them. They get so caught up in self-righteousness and condemnation that it never occurs to them that there might be a different way. Don't be like that. You'll miss so much.

Though Oz had given her a twisted life, hadn't it also made her capable?

Do you ever think back on those moments in your life where you were at a cross-roads, and the decision you made altered your course? Do you wonder that, in that one infinite moment, your life was still,and your futures were many, you only had to choose...and you did, but blindly, because if at the moment you had to decide you were aware of what power you held, and how fragile the balance was, you wouldn't be able to do it. Can you look back now, and pick out those moments? I can. When I was asked if I wanted to try another gym besides Olympiad, and I said no. In the beginning with Adam, when said yes; at the end with him, when I said no. I said yes to Florida, yes to James, yes to my uncle when he asked if I hated what I was doing. And so many other times I've said one word and changed everything. I don't regret the decisions I've made; I can't afford to. If nothing else I can say it was my choices that brought me here. But sometimes...sometimes I wonder what would have happened if I had said yes instead of no? Where would I be...who would I be? I don't know. And I'm not sure that I need to.

What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us?

I defined

'I' am a soul that inhabits a body, given to me by God.
I am the sum of these things, and neither.
I am myself, and a part of something greater than myself.
I am of the earth, and the sky, and the sea, and I am none of these.
I am a thinking being.
I am all the things that I feel and want and do, and all the things I cannot.
I am of shadow and matter and yet I am none of these.
I am the breath in my lungs and the blood in my veins.
I exist, but only for a brief moment in time, and when I cease to be on earth, then I will exist in the greater conciousness, for eternity, and beyond even that.

Bon Voyage package for Meg:)

Well, hon, I wanted to get you some things for your trip...but you know how broke I am lol. So instead here are the things I would have gotten you (and I may, someday), had I the means:


A signed copy of Kushiel's Dart, because 1) I know where to get one, 2) You are going to need some serious reading material for the flight, and this is plenty long enough, and 3) It is just a great book in general, and I know you would like it.


A bottle of Italian Love Affair...because I hope you have one:)

And I don't have a picture of the third thing, but it's a notebook, well, two really, one with lined pages for writing covered in smooth red leather, and one with blank pages for drawing covered in black leather. They are the perfect size for carrying with you, and I always keep one with me, just in case...you never know when you may need to write something down.

Have a good trip:)

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And here you are.
Destined to choose,
and choose,
and choose again,
the same path,
and you will make the same choice
and give it all up again,
everything you know and hold close,
everything that you are and thought you were,
for one person,
for one irreplaceable person...
who would not ask you to decide,
to pick her over your life,
and that is why you make the choice you do,
and will again,
knowing all the while
that you can't go back,
only forward,
the same choice
over and over again.

Quickie update

I've been very busy lately working on my other blog, but I will be getting back to this one soon, I promise.
Ciao!